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I lost a bit of faith in myself –

“…Be not afraid, only believe.”Mark 5:36 I slipped out the back door of the old house where we went to church. It didn’t have a large parking lot nor a steeple… It was simply an old house. There were chairs set up in rows,… Continue Reading “I lost a bit of faith in myself –”

Mistakes were made…

“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”John 14:27 The idea in my 5-year-old mind was simple and clear… The routine… Continue Reading “Mistakes were made…”

Adrenaline mixed with incredible anger surged…

“Be still and know that I am God…” Psalms 46:10 A year ago I sat amongst boxes of my possessions having just moved into a new zip code. I was searching for my heart to feel at home…  Since then, my journey has been… Continue Reading “Adrenaline mixed with incredible anger surged…”

I felt God was likely disappointed in me…

It was the phase of life of backyard ball games, trikes, training wheels ,legos, and matchbox cars. I was painting around the den window in our small starter home, starring at the empty quiet street just beyond our front yard. The room did not… Continue Reading “I felt God was likely disappointed in me…”

“If Only” I Had More… Strength…

I rode in the back of a farm pickup truck with the cool field breezes blowing my bangs back. It was minutes before dawn. Nearly every summer morning as a young teenager began this same way. I would close my eyes and take in… Continue Reading ““If Only” I Had More… Strength…”

Exhausted From the Frustration of Redefining “Normal”…

I fell into my king size bed- alone and exhausted… It was nearly twenty years ago that I was mid-way through a two-week journey parenting alone. These trips were common. My husband was gone on travel training foreign entities to secure their nuclear materials.… Continue Reading “Exhausted From the Frustration of Redefining “Normal”…”

An Unconquerable Spirit

I have an inch-long scar on my chin… With each rise and fall, I was desperately trying to hold on with all my might. I was determined to not let go despite feeling like a helpless ragdoll flailing without strength. I told myself to… Continue Reading “An Unconquerable Spirit”

Mine To Claim Forever…

I set out headed down the street with my wagon filled –  Pulling a mobile feast I would never partake of. Our wagon was well used- it was scuffed and dented- each mark representing moments of work or play. In the spring, we would… Continue Reading “Mine To Claim Forever…”

“You Know- You Can Prove Them Wrong…”

The new PE teacher at my junior high school had been slow to win me over… until one day… Our class arrived at PE class in the school’s multi-purpose room. That morning it served as our gymnasium for PE and a few short hours… Continue Reading ““You Know- You Can Prove Them Wrong…””

Acting out the “Hard” I was Feeling…

I was sitting there on the floor… legs crossed, pulled up to my chest wondering to myself what would happen next.  I wasn’t sure how or why I did it… but clearly I was acting out the “hard” I was feeling.  It was 3rd… Continue Reading “Acting out the “Hard” I was Feeling…”